I am glad that TCS is not going to broadcast the New Year Celebration. I thought everything should be cancelled actually.. Anyhow... I thought that is mature of us! Good Job Singapore!!!

And so.... I have managed to survive 2004 unscattle. Thank my lucky stars and everything that have been part of the safety net they created to guide me and allow me to grow as one should.


The skies opened up today. It had been raining quite a bit since yesterday. I can only imagine the diaster zone will be even more difficult and chaotic with the rains and stuff... wrecking what the tsunamis didnt do further. Death Toll last known is 128'000 dead. Is like the population of a small country just conked off like that! I'm sure God have his ways... we arent even qualified to question~ Just hope Mother Nature hold her horses when she lash such things at us.


I'm suppose to go thru 2004 and do a reflection but everything seems so unbelievable small now that the dreaded killer waves occurs. Instead.. I have nothing to complain about. I am just glad I am alive and well with my family. I am thankful for friends although their numbers are superbly remote! I am thankkful that hope is still around and we are unified as a world.


I have a distinct want to help out in labour but never get down to it. I procrastinate way too much. I wanna join some kick ass exercise group but not sure what I want. I am determined to stretch my limits but I am not sure how. Let me just go thru my resolution which I posted almost a year ago!!


1. To finally be healthier *Read : Shed more weight lah!* so I am going to ensure I stick to my blades and tennis. Oh wait.. I will skip those ropes faithfully....... come next week...or make it after chinese new year?!


Well... I did loose some weight.. like 2 kgs... heh much to achieve still actually.. I add that to my resolution this year then..



2. To start doing something contructive *read: Writing blog counts right!*


I got back my habit to read books beside magazines! Yeah! But you know with school and work it's not possible to go back what I used to do....so I'll cont but that is one thing off my list!!!


3. Get a new job! After my last meeting in US. I totally got so depress about the state of business that I am bailing out.. hahaha so much for that pep talk! But seriously.. just got lazier and lazier so want to ensure that ommp.. is there in me. Biggest challenge yet!


I actually got 2 really good offer in the end but still slogging here because of the bonus that I was reluctant to let go. Then again I want to look for another one this year. nuff of the pampering and comfort zone!



4. To pysche myself for marriage. JK is waiting for me to give the go ahead to register the marriage. told him no way I am going to get married without a future in a job first. *Afterall I know how HR think married women are parasite! I know at least I do think that way... ya I know.. I sucks as a person *


We settled on a date next year.. so there.. another thing down!



5. To get back to my cell list of friends. I have their numbers and I dont call then you think about it.. why the hell do you still keep their number then!


I certainly did this alright.. I have gatherings with more groups than 10 years added together!! K.O!!


so there... I will set my resolution for 2005 by Chinese New Year..

To end this year.. I dont wanna celebrate to be frank.. but I just wish with all my might that we will never see destruction this big ever again.

Something happen to Ros's family.. I knew it! Her paternal side of the relatives reside in Aceh where the Tsunamis hit. Anyway I hate this whole crap.. This morning the TV reported 86k ppl estimated died from the killer wave. Such a simple force of nature but result in devastation all around! Oh man.. this is so depressing! HATE IT!! I am trying to get blockhead colleagues in China to donate for the cause. Hopefully those big earners give something in return!


Ok.. nuff of depression of the whole death Tsunamis and crap stuff...


We had this gathering yesterday with the girls and it was super duper fun as usual. Plenty of gossips, shouts and laughter.. I am just glad everyone is good and up to attend the thing although we have some strays who fly our kite in the end.. hmmmp! n'way we having another one 2 weeks later and I am so looking forward to it. Cept' this year we are going to bring the year book! hahahhaha.. to laugh over our silly faces! hohoho!! Kel's birthday was on actually so we all went to B'clava for drinks and silly banters. It's a nice place to chill but consider I get FREE flow just at mdm sultan.. it seems silly to spent money at B'clava. She had a bit too much and I drove her and the CRV back to her place. I am so in love with the 4 wheel drive. I reckon I get a Rav 4 if I have that dough in the future because they are so delish!


Satisfying...


I kinda like gathering because we crap so much and exchange gossips that is SO never enough! haa.. Girls being girls I reckon. Someone retort like 10 years later we are starting to gather. DUH!! It's never too late if you asked me! Not only that.. most of the girls going to stay at SK and PG since most of them are getting houses there! More gatherings!! Yeah.. It's funny because when we were in school.. we were so into ourselves and have this little grudges with whoever there is in this class and the next. When we grow out of it we just realize .. hey we dont hate each other so much! I thought the relationship is precious.. just beyond words! They aint going to read this but I still wanna tell them.... 'You guys are great! Thank you for the LOVELY times everytime we go out!!'

I don't know why but I feel a certain element of sadness of the quake as I listen to the radio. What the hell was Mother Nature thinking when she sent this kick ass tsunamis our way! Indonesia Vice president is estimating at least 40'000 people dead! I cannot imagine how many in total headcount from the 7 countries involved is exactly dead.


It sorta just jolted me and I have resolute to donate to the victims this time and I am starting to cajoled people in my circle of friends to do likewise. Dinner at fancy joints is going to be changed to something conservative and the money we were prepared to spent will be donate to charity. I'm having 3 such gatherings this week so I am getting all the chummies to do the same. hopefully we raise a bit


If anyone is reading this.. pass it on. We are part of asia and we use their produce and make use of their labour and tour their countries. Now it's our turn to return something back to the countries. Let join hands and do our part donate generously to help the countries build theirselves up. We are so lucky to be located that shield us from such calamities. If we can spent so much money on voting for Singapore Idols and such. I think we can spare another few dollars for the Tidal Wave Victims!

Darling just sms me to say it is Snowing at his workplace... *sigh* Authentic Christmas dont you think.. although it came a couple of days late.


Apart from being a Grinch on Friday, I got a tad happier as the day pass and totally love this year christmas ALTHOUGH I must say I celebrate for the wrong reasons! ha! So I got the last prize in the company lucky draw but I must say the last prize is better than say the middle prizes.. 12 packs and a watch which dad thought was nifty. Got half day from the boss and went back to wash the car and prepare to go to Hock's place. After buying groceries and stuff drove all the way to wayward Woodlands! So .. I was told I dont have to racked my brain and cook but guess who have to do the cooking in the end? They dont have the receipe of the Fish and chips and call me nostradamus but I gotten the recipe from my sis-in-law in advance because I know they pull this off every year. Imagine calling me the kitchen idiot to pull off dinner for 9! Anyway I did the marinate stuff and prepare the breaded dories and Al did the frying of the fish. WE thought it was great to be frank and I am dammit proud of it myself being my first attempt to marinate and cook fish.. Okay.. totally over-rated.. blah! Like I said.. this is my blog and I brag when I want to =P! I did the chocolate fondue and the bailey's mudslide.. SUPER YUMMY!! anyway Rave reviews.. I should go enrol in le cordon school of culinary school in London or something =P... Ok this bragging has got to stop! Ha!


Anyway we waited for Teng's brothers to come after work before we do the gift exchange. I feel damit bad this year because I didnt blardy get anyone extra gifts except for the gift exchange and teng and hock's wife got me.. I got this water fountain thing which looks good! Wherelse everyone got the lousy gifts! HA!! We played Boggle/ Jenga / Poker Cards and I end up drinking half of the baileys... Needless to say I was on a high and we were still going strong at 5AM!! I dont even remember when it officially ended but I took a seat the couch suddenly and kai started vomitting.. too much alcohol. The next thing I know it was 9am in the morning!!! If anyone knows me well nuff.. I NEVER stay away from home.. AND I must bath no matter how drunk I am after clubbing. Mum wasnt too pleased but she didnt said anything because I know she was mad that I didnt go home to bring the dog for his walk and feed it more than anything else. My mum have this thing about responsibility.. Well after 11 years of owning the dog I must say this is the first year that I 'went' this far. I dont even stay over at darling's house. I just have a thing abt sleeping at my own house. Period. Last I heard.. Kai vomitted 6 times the entire day.. Grace!


I and zohter trod back home and I slept for maybe 2 more hours before going to Kel's house for the BBQ with my pri/sec classmates! I just love her place. So... sitcom set.. you know.. ideal and nice and everything sweet and nice. She took me on a tour ard her house and after that I was the official guide. I think she trust ppl too much at times. Anyhow if anyone have this perfect little life she certainly have it! I love her garden as well.. and she was going.. 'please lah is the same as yours' Damn not so.. that's what happen when you stay in the same place for too long. You dont appreciate it .. I hang out with the gang till late and I must admit this had got to be one of the best Christmas ever complete with a gingerbread house. Because it was fun and it was... heartwarming!


Sunday was suppose to the day or rest and relax and I met up with Teng to pass her a bag and shop a little.. everywhere was hell but I manage to locate this quaint parking lots which not a lot of people know of *beam*. Bought nothing but a magazine with a 20% discount tag on it! I'm a cheapo I know!! After that went home to BIG time bad news... This had got to be the biggest damper on the Christmas holidays.


They have this big time quake near Aceh/Sumatra off indonesia seabed and that propel this amazing titanic tidal waves that washes away lifes.. Thousands of them from 7 countries in South Asia. It's always weird when it happen a year after Bam earthquake in Iraq.. I just feel sad because I was happily trodding along Phuket just last year and snorkeling with the long boat owner at Phi Phi island. I still remember the family off the shoreline at Phi PHi where we bought a couple of stuff from them. They have literally nothing in that 'provision' shop but bare necessities. Their kids playing along the coast and cycling and playing with whatever they can find on the beach. I shudder to think that Phi Phi was literally wipe out and what happen to that family? Or even for the boatman... I wonder if they are alright. I still remember the quaint restaurant that we have our breakfast and lunch and dinner at Phuket just by Patong Beach. I wonder if the folks were okay too. I just feel so disturbed by the whole event. I dont particularly donate anything to causes but I feel a need to help this time round because we were part of the Thai family for that 11 days when we backpacked there last year.


I pray that God makes everything better and we trust he will. For it is in him we trust who look upon as his children and him as our father. In the name of the father and of the son and of the holy spirit. Amen. Whatever religion we are may we put aside our difference and pray for a single cause for world peace and an end to the calamity that have befall us. For we belive in that one God in whatever form he is despite everything will make everything good and new like the sunrise he gives us everyday.

I feel like the Grinch this year.. out to spite the 'Who's and who' Village or something.


Where is the small tibits and nuggets of gifts I dish out and where are the cards I took ages to write? Something's wrong and I hate it? I apologize.. but I been too self absorbed the following weeks lamenting and going on and on about my little existance in this world feeling so full of self pity!


Blah!


I hate feeling down on christmas or for whatever season for whatever reasons. Let hope someone rub off some season cheer on me SOON! Before I ruin Christmas for whoever is in my company for the next few days!


Melanchony at it's best. It couldnt get any 'better' than this...

So is officially Christmas eve... and I dont feel the least bit excited about it. Here I am ..talking to the significant other *which I dont even know if he's the one yet!!!* millions of miles away in china using the amazing tool since fire was invented by Caveman and I dont feel the least bit happy about it. I know! I am just being an uber pain the arse with the attitude I am giving him now.. I CAN'T HELP IT!! Just want him to feel guilty for moving on to China without thinking much abt the stupid relationship`~ Arrgghhh I HATE IT!


To make it worse... I have not wrapped any present, not yet decide if I am still dishing up presents of thoughts, not written any christmas cards and ya dah ya dah ya dah.... in short, I am just not prepare for the day yet! Arr crap!


Just as 2004 have been a lousy year.. I am not foreseeing 2005 to be any better. I am just feeling this cloud of depression suddenly dont ask me why but I am suspecting that I didnt get enough TV and chocolate to sooth me since the blockhead left. something just aint the same and he keep wanting me to say it is. That's him for generalization.


I am in no state to blog because I am being stupid...

Ignore me... ignore post...

What a lousy day. How I hate days when you have people who committed and ask you to buy something on his behalf and he balantly back out and still throw me an attitude! At least I trash it out with him and gave him a piece of my mind. That's how the world is.. a bit uncommitted peppered with sicken tinge of irritation that threaten to make it boil! duh! the cheek of some monkeys!


Anyhow so the locksmith came and when... and me a tad 30 bucks smackeroo short!And my colleague came and tell me i should just ruin the lock and buy another set of locks and that will probably set me back only what.. $20?? I was going...'Now you say?!!' DUH!


I got invites for Christmas BBQ and I thought that is uber neat. I mean I dont do much on Christmas day ... the actual day that is. Everyone make plans for the eve but the actual day.. everyone sorta just go ...' hmmmm so today is the day and what's so special?' . Apart from the commercialism and the whole santa and reindeer thing came up by the same people who bring you coke *yes ppl.. there is not such things as Santa Claus and there is just an icon came out by Coca cola. A marketing gimmicks that got picked up way too much!!!!* everyone sorta just forgotten that is the immaculate birth of Jesus and O' St nick was the person who was going ard the places of the poor delivering small change and toys. How the santa and st nick got emeshed is totally bonkers but the point is ... we are celebrating X'mas for the wrong reasons and that's a bit sad. Same crap with the Titanic and the Rose and the Dicaprio-what's-his-name character I dont wven want to start on it.. Everyone just see beyond the tragedy and just get so involved in the love and ever lasting love crap the 2 MAKE-UP character by the film script writer! For God's sake.. the 2 dubious character are NOT REAL!!! People tons of them DID DIE without much love from anyone! Check out the docummentary not the film! I got to be the last 7 person in this earth who have not seen the film and still proud of it to belong to the extinct species =P~~ On another hand I dont particularly celebrate X'mas for the right reasons but I find it a good time for bonding with friends and just hang out together. Sigh... I am ironic and self contradicting! So sue me!!!


Ok.. I sense my babbling is going way too much.. I abhor my thinking aloud because ppl think I am weird!


Reminds me.. got to wash the car! I am officially driving a Grey car going black..

It's a miracle but.........................I'm Alive!!!!!!


*That line is so freaking familiar and I wonder if Mary Shelly had anything to do with it.*


ANYHOW.... Dad didnt freakin yell at me on the phone... He just told me calmy that I have to pay $30 for the locksmith to unlock the room door.. PERIOD!


Well... although I think that is uber costly and I hate to pay that much. It beats locking down the door or whatever crap I could have thought of to enter my freakin room. I am so going to Duplicate a copy of the key TONIGHT!


So tra la la.. I'm a happy camper 30 bucks poorer! I wanted to blog about my idol today but the 'key, locksmith and yelling dad' scare episode distorted my thoughts.. blah! I do it tomorrow then...

Klutzy stupidfied me locked myself out of my own room today and I have no duplicates for the key! Dad is so going to kill me!!! ARrrgghhh... Mom told me she's going to tell dad to get him to unlock for me... I am SO BLARDY DEAD like fishes in the fishmonger's stall!It doesnt help that the old man been telling me to go duplicate the key for ions just incase I lock myself out..

HATE IT!

This is WAY worse than exams!

So what did I do yesterday but watch more TV.. I swear I can feel the liquidification of my brain when I turn my head or the slighest movement ever!


Only managed to drag myself out of the house at 7pm to do some Christmas shopping. Still.. parking was a nightmare! I thought I was being a smart aleck by parking at the opposite HDB block at Tampines Mall to save some parking changes. Not only everyone thought the same thing... But parking EVERYWHERE is hell! But luckily a spot came up.. Just when you thought it couldnt get any worse..


So I trod to spotlights bought some itsy bitsy stuff to do the personalize gift shit.. tried shopping at Tampines Mall.. Bought a boggle set for the gift exchange although JK said the gift seems too cheem for the dinner party crowd I am going this Friday.. Duh.. I played boggle when I was in Pri 3! Then again.. I know that group would love mj and all mindless games than say boggle. Well the point is.. to buy a unisex game and to meet the budget is tough nuff'. I aint going to brood over if they are intellectually smart nuff for the game or otherwise. Anyhow JK bought Jenga last year.. so I can't repeat buying a 'blockhead' game this year. =P


The crowd are amazing and the sales are smokin' hot if you asked me... I a glad I am such a warrior.. I RESIST impulse sales buys with the best of my ability. Almost bought this Jamie Oliver book.. but nah.... I can read them at the bookshops.. HEHE... Ok I know I am such a lousy cheapskate!


SO the sunday ended with me stocking up junks from NTUC. It's always the super market.. I have a lovehate relationship with that place.. Because I love to stock up on food but at the same time I hate spending money on the junks I buy!

Talk to darling for a while and told him I want him to come back fast.. sigh.. This skype is really great for free internet telephony. Although the looney connection is horrible at times but at least it save us hefty bills.. although we havent seen such bills because both of our cells are company expenses! haa.. but we shouldnt take things for granted and I reckon if anyone need to use such a service click on wwww.skype.com


So monday is here and what's new but my US counterparts are on vacation mode! YESssshh!! Anything to keep them out of my hair! hoho..

So the weekend is here and almost gone.. And what else did I do but hog the goggle box for the afternoon.. Almost have to pry myself apart from the TV with a crowbar before I can get down to bath the dog. when dad's was home I was already out and he thought I forgot to close the window and left the dog drench with water.. where infact the reason why the dog is wet because he just had his bath like 20 mins ago. He was kinda yellin at me abt leaving the window open and causing the dog to be drench! Duh.. My dad the paranoid!

Drove to SGH to check on uncle who is in hospital no thanks to cancer.. I dont know what to say to him because he can't speak! I hate it.. I mean he's younger than mom.... and quit drinks and smoking vice and that's what God gave to him. Talk about fair this whole bloody world is just SO unfair! Well.. the doctor gave up but I just can't believe it.. I mean he doesnt look any less fitter than the man in the next bed! Just that neck's after all the operations is swelling way too much.. sigh.. Life's sucks pretty much!

Stayed for like an hour before moving off because my cousin was there to keep him company.. Went to my FAVOURITE ikea to stock up for Christmas pressies! HEE.. As usual.. I am stocking up on stuff and crack the brain a little to make my personalize gifts out of the treasures I got! AWwwwwwww heart warming aye?! Just so had it with commercialize christmas stuff.. tomorrow going to spotlight to get more itsy bitsy. Was actually thinking of getting plain notebooks and spruce it up but with my luck I found none of these sort... sigh..... but when I'm not into buying it, I'm sure it be a dime a dozen! HMMP!

Trival of the day...

After dinner mint actually prevent you from farting!

Here's my trivia of the day.....


Do you know that an elephant would have walk around the globe for 14 times if you calculate the total amount of distance it covers in it lifetime.. And....

A while elephant aint porclein white! They are just paler than regular elephant, with white pupils, white nails, paler lips, white bristle on their tails and a layer of white hair ard the animal. And no.. white elephant aint a myth.. they truly exist just that it is seldom you get to see one since they are kept in Thailand royal family garden! Well.. I saw one.. and I thought there is something unusual about them!

I hate Thursday...


It always means that I have to wait till next Wednesday for the next epsiode of 'The Amazing Race' *sulk* I hate that MJ and Don are out of the game! They always makes me go AWwwwwwwwwww... they are so sweet! On the other hand I like Lori and Bono as well.. I have no idea why because I thought I would hate them but compared to some other teams.. I like them pretty much!


Then again...


I like Thursday because it always signified that the weekend is drawing close......and I can sleep in and vegetate more and just laze more. But blockhead isnt in Singapore and wait... I dont look forward to weekends that much anymore *shrug*


Being incoherent again... ignore me!


Going for the 'holiday season' dinner with the office girls which we traditionally practise every year. Instead of the Century Roxy.. we decide to up the stake and do it at waterfront copthorne this year. I think it be grand and guess what I freakin wearing... RAGS!! I am going home after work to change into something decent lest I get mistake for the janitor or something..


Ordered delivery for KFC yesterday night ... I am so sick of KFC now.. I have no idea why because I only ate 2 pcs.. I can down a 3 pcs most of the time.. but I was sick in the stomach after yesterday fest. So the family pigged out and watched the TV at the same time.


So I spent the night watching Tv way too much ... Animal Planet and Discovery always have much to offer and MTV as well.. Although I know that is way to indulgent.. I secretly like it! heeee

Nothin interesting ever happens and my life and if you think groundhog day is bad.. you should take a sniff at me.


The thing about vegetating is that it erodes not only you physically but also mentally. Beside taking in the funny lines from TVs and fabulous dances that MTV is blasting I think nothing aside from trying to mouth along to the hip hops MTVs and laugh myself silly with the programs blaring in the lil black box. I dont even attempt to read a book and while pumping gas in the morning I bought the latest 8 Days for more TV gossips. It doesnt help that pop think I am doing something deservingly right by such indulgence. You see.. he even record all the programs long and short which he know or think I have an interest in when I am not home by 7pm. That, my friend is how wonderful popsy is to me! haha... Mums do that as well.. hahah.. They think I study way too much and since I am having the holidays they throughly indulge me! Although if only they knew better.. I dont even study until the lecturer is releasing exams tips and I dont have the slighest idea which chapter she is talking about.


Mums into baking tons of pineapple tarts again.. her friends are ald ordering for Christmas.. talk about kiasu...


Trivia..

Do you know Bill Gates got to spent 14 million dollars a day for the next 30 years if he want to use up his entire fortune?!?!?!?! how lucky some ppl are.. while some like me probably probably have fortune that will run out if I spent $14 everyday till the end of the month! owell... you win some you lose some!

Had a packed weekend...


And again ... The typical bitch me slam darlin's phone on Saturday and I have not heard from him since. Sigh.. Anyway dont wanna talk about it because it is truly non value added. Just feel down whenever I talk about this stupid relationship at times. Anyhow.. I'm just being a biatch so ignore me!


Anyway Fri and Sunday was spent doing sidelines selling bags.. I can feel I am becoming a bag lady ... and that I mean those people with a lot of PLASTIC/ PAPER bags plying the street sorta..Although I wasnt doing any of that sorta... transfering the bags from the car to the meeting point I sorta just resemble one. Ha!


Zohter and me ate dinner only like at 11 and while waiting for food I still have customers calling me up to meet outside the mall. When I went back to my food... boy.. It was cold and we both were wacked literally!


I spent saturday doing up the catalogue and answering questions and basically just vegetating ard. I ate only 1 meal that day and strangly enough I didnt felt near death experience from starvation. Talk a bit with the blockhead and before I end the call.. I just gotten neurotic and started to tell him he is selfish blah blah blah again. I can't help it actually. I am just depressed, I suspect I had mild depression but then again.. nothing that chocolate and plenty of gossip and TVs can't cure.


Morning went to meet the last customers and right after that rush to the Botanical Gardens for an apparent picnic. The rest decided to celebrate Kel's birthday at botanical Garden. I was so dammit pissed beause they couldnt tell me the exact location depite my repeats calls to tell them the exact location I was in!!!!!


Well.. you know you can't say picnic without having rain and guess what.. it didnt just rain... it pours and if I didnt know better I thought I was expecting a typhoon coming up, it sorta form small little lakes and pond all over all in 2 minutes and pathetic me was just stuck at this map shelter where the roof barely covered anything and thank god for the golf umbrella I brought along but then again the rain was so heavy, it stil drenched my shorts! imagaine that! The worse thing was that due to the various construction going on... the drain sorta just choked up and within 5 minutes, frogs and toads were coming out and water was just gushing from everywhere. If anyone think I am exaggerating.. I swear on the last hershey in my kitchen that I didnt!!!! It was a scene you thought you never imagine that you will be in ... especially Urban Singapore. With the thunder in the background I was pissing mad at the gang for not being precisely about their location and making me walk AROUND botanical gardens LITERALLY in that heavy downpour!


Anyway finally found them and spent like 10 minutes before We made our way back... dammit! Anyhow.. might as well... I dont fancy the company plenty to be truthful.. I was so grateful when I sat in my car that I was safe away from the frogs and toads and all things rainy!


So made Jules to let her have a look at the bags before I proceed to al's parent home. I just have to say something about the smell in the house. The Dogs' smell is horrendous! If mine and zohters' mums just have any idea, they be throughly grateful that muf and shel are such darlings! Anyway I dont know whether it is because the dog was old that it give out the powerful pongs or is it the ear infections that al's was saying for the longest time. Because the smell was everywhere and I didnt dare to get too near to george's because I saw fleas on his skin.. and the last thing I need is to get 1 of the bug on my clothes and go home and pass to my lovely bugger! If you know me.. I never refuse a dog but george's is just too much to bear.. the smell, the fleas.. Bad nuff dad and mum get on sheldon case so often and last thing I really need is to aggravate the situation further.. ha!


Had dinner at al's folks house before heading to fetch zohter and we went to have satays! yums! Love the auntie satay's at old airport road! Yummers!!


Zonk out at night and as I lay to sleep I couldnt believe that the weekend was so over.. So again monday came and went and it's like groundhog day over and over again till the weekend is here.


Christmas is like really near and I AM SO FREAKIN lazy.. still didnt get anyone anything because I was simply being way too lazy... I resolute to do something about it this week.. looking forward to tomorrow ald where amazing race is playing! Yeah!And I decide I am so going to buy something for myself after the amazing year that is going to end.



Oh and results is out and my gosh.. I got amazing grades which totally rocks! Although I can tell you all I was expecting is just a pass. Santa came early this year and send me good grades! Yeah!

I'm eating liqour in the office.. and I think I can feel the knock out effect.. Ha~

Anyway I'm chewing on these bailey's chocolate sticks! Yummy! Uber nice and smooth! I thought I had a surreal vision when I look up for the time on the wall clock. Ha! Spent like $30 on chocolates for my colleagues in US and France.. I know it is stupid to sent choclate but I didnt sent the regular ones.. some snazzy one from Australia and you can't get in US. That's for all the shit they put up with me the entire year and I HOPE... this will finally be my last year that I be sending all these stuff over. *Read: GET A NEW JOB AND STOP BEING COMFY IN THIS HOLE!!*

side notes..I want to write in paragraphs! But the stupid script dont do what they are being told ARRGGHHH!!!

Spent more than 12 hours in the office EVERYDAY! Works' piling and I hate it! I dont like stuff where I must continue to do tomorrow. I wanna clear everything asap. That's my sicko style I know.. whatever! I just cannot stand coming back and find the stuff I done halfway and spent the next half an hour going through to find out where I left off!

I confess.. I was a total bitch yesterday. Talk to blockhead for a while and something in me just snaps because the net connection was bad. I told him I hate this sorta arrangement for the 10214302085025920384818239 times. Than he tells me he decide that he wanna come back in june blah blah blah.. So I told him if by then I get used to it *which I think I wont!* he can cont to work there and come back in 2006. And I told him.. if he want to go overseas to work next time.. either go together or dont at all.

Life's a bitch and I'm a uber cranky stupid bitch .. the ultimate icing on the cake!

Uber pissed today! Everyone was asking wanna see the bags wanna see the bags.. And when I managed to sneak samples out.. everyone say they don't want to see ald ?!?! Anyway that's my sideline trying to earn more dough for fees and savings.. blah!

Nothing major ever happens.. dont get me wrong but I like it the way it is.. just that it does get mudane at times.. I am raring to start a garage sales actually! Let's just get zohter to finish her exams first~

hock just called to say he got me a car stereo. About time! That thing in my machine can only play radio and I love radio but the thing is I like to play my discs as well where I can sing!

we are planning to have dinner on Christmas eve at hock's place.. the girls are cooking and I am planning to make Friday's Mudslide!! Yummers!!! Thinking of baking a bailey's cheese cake actually!But you know me and cheesecake.. I always ruin them! Nevermind I could try baking one over the weekend to see the effect..Zohter's coming with me.. let's hope it be a blast..

Anyway we decide to go with Flutes on the Fort for the simple ROM.. I am excited.. BUT... flutes told me they might not open on the day *faint* owell.. We'll see how it goes..

The much dreaded time had come.. Blockhead is gone on Sunday and wont be back till Chinese New Year. I dont miss him major yet but it be soon.. I feel it..

Talked with Teng on the night he left.. she was telling me all the insecurity and ya dah ya dah... that being a girl and waiting in singapore.. I have everything to lose.. well, it's not as if my folks or our folks for the matter is there to support us like her's and al. Imagine they stand to inherit the cost of sales from the old place at mdm sultan!!! Wherelse for us.. we probably inherit the old stove and the sofa from blockhead parents.. and me I dont want to inherit anything.. I want my mum and dad to live till the moon turn into blue cheese!

That's life, a little bias but something what you can call your very own peppered with the misery, happiness, glee and sadness..I am envious alright.. envious of Teng for what she gets and what I dont.. But I like the envious factor or I wont be pushing myself to work harder and I like the competition, never mind it gets me down at time.. we just got off the phone and she was telling me she got a new offer for a job paying her a freaking 4k PLUS profit sharing. Now I wont be able to top that for sure.. Whatever is the case I am just glad I am where I am.. All part of my hardwork. Never mind that the significant other is far from me.. although I am uber jealous she is able to enjoy the companionship with al and still lead a luxurious life at least everything we have and own is all mine and blockhead cash from scratch , my degree fully paid for by myself while jim's car paid for by him.

That's the green eye monster in me.. ha! So hell.. life's is always not a bed of roses for me.. but where's the significance if it is just soft roses san the thorns! That's what makes everything more memorable and makes me more appreciative with what we earned with our toil, labour and heartache..

Anyway mum was telling to call blockhead to come back and stop working in china yesterday and I was going ...huh??!?! Now you say!?! Whatever is the case he's there and that's the point.And I dont want to have this quarrel with him everytime we on the phone how he didnt give a damn when he took up the job offer ya dah ya dah ya dah... our contact are barely there and the last thing I wanna do is to make both of us fed up with my childish antics. I mean .. I'm no major fan of my tantrum so the less of it the better.

Sigh.. I'm getting depression... I think I am heading for a major one especially in this holiday season. I have never dread the end of the year so much in life and I hope it be the last one I ever felt that way abt the festive season in my life ever again...

But just incase God's wondering.. I still am thankful what I have! loads actually...never mind the trivial stuff!

These few days has been a rush to check out venue for the ROM thingy for next year whilst blockhead is in town. He's such a fusspot! You would think a girl will be more particular about such details.. Guess what?! Aint in this relationship sista~

We went to Amara hotel and check out their package it was cool 999 nett! I mean it is a good deal rather than say what we spent at Flutes.. It is weird.. you want the perfect lil ceremony and you are pinching every penny to prevent that from happening. Sigh...anyhow he is saying that he dont want to do this in the hotel since the banquet is going to be at one blah blah blah...

Wed we took a break so darlin can study for the exams on Thurs. Meanwhile we had dinner at Oaks yesterday and to be frank I kinda like the place and the food is reasonably cheap! Darlin's not that keen though.. But we pigged out major last night! The Food is dammit cheap!! with the load we order they have this promotion going on for a wine buffet fully redeemeable for the dinner bill! So we had the whole dinner and the works with darlin drowin 5-7 glasses of different wine while me had the lime soda.. The bill... a whopping $50 only!

Later on we went to Cafe Society and Indochine at Empress place to check out these potential site and Indochine seems too exp for us but Cafe Society didnt actually seems too bad...

I am totally fine with all the places actually because I like them all.. there's no definetly must have place in my opinion because all of them are so lovely.. however that doesnt seem the case with the significant other. And all this for a small reception and he is racking his brain. Wait till the big one comes along and I see how he co-ordinate with him being in china! blah!!!

We ended the night going to Cheesecake cafe at Siglap! Nice touch ... love that place! And boy was it crowded or what!?! As much as I enjoyed the night and every other night I was out with that boy I simply cannot take it that he have to go back to China on Sunday early afternoon. It sucks! and I hate it...It wont be till Chinese New Year before he can come back... and I hate it...

Life's complicated why can't it be simple .... I hate seperation and for now.. I hope the weekend never comes..