I used to adore business travel : (Fill in the blanks from any choice from below)

Until I joined the current employer
Until I have to start writing all those stupid trips reports.
Until I have to raise permission slips before travels.
Until I always ended up with tasks on my desk as a result of the travel.
Until I have to put up with staying in a sad hotel near my office.
Until I exhaust all the places I could go because I knew everything like the back of my hand
Until I have to downgrade my flights to coach class despite being more than 8 hours flight
Until I have to take the cheapest airline made available at times.

So you see I have all the negativity going on for me and needless to say I was just happy it is over although I did spent a really good time at H & M but that is another story. ;)

I knew I was preggers again 1 week prior to my flight, tried to get all the drugs there is to support the pregnancy I think I needed. Visited the TCM who prescribed me with some medicine for daily drinking. Although I dont know if it would work at all (at least I know in 9 months time) but it sure assure me lots. My gynae nurse insisted I cancel my travel and because of all the hassle to have secure this trip agenda there was no turning back. I appreciate that she got me extra hormones pills in the end though. So far so good since my return yesterday and I hope I keep it up. I am starting to feel some queasy feeling which reminded me of the twins pregnancy. the breakout keeps up and the temp are rather nice and high. This is only my 5th weeks so you can see we are pretty early and I just want to do everything I can and hopefully the baby sticks with us really tight!

The hubby is so going to make a nice daddy. I so know it hence I find it so painful that I cannot make him one but the 3rd might be a charm and so we are keeping our hopes up but also open. The mutt is having challenges with aging joints and the dear hubby was so nice to offer to bring him to and fro to the vet on weekdays so I have 1less thing to worry about. I wish I can tell this to T who made some remarks along the line that because my hubby was always travelling for work and hence not as family oriented as her hubby. I just do not like to broadcast about our miscarriages and hence saved the effort but I felt so wronged for my hubby. I so love him and that is all that matters..

To T... I wish I can tell her to suck it because your hubby is not by choice family oriented. It was a case of be family oriented of the wife throw a big tantrum.

Counting down to the gynae scan and appreciating the nauseum that hits me in waves.

I completely forgotten about Hubby's birthday which was yesterday and felt so absolutely rotten! Think was still trying to digest the news of the pregnancy hence was a little out of sort.

It is getting a little spooky but I found the coincidence a little scary and decided to document it down...

In the span of my pregnancies hisory in the past 9 months...


When we had the twins pregnancy, I strike lottery on our house number and hit 2nd prize

When we had the blighted ovum pregnancy I strike consolation prize with our house number

The current pregnancy of which I am officially 4 weeks today I strike lottery yesterday again with our house number.

I hope the money is not to compensate us for the babies losses...I really hope this pregnancy will be good.. still praying earnestly daily..

These past 9 months have been a roller coaster ride.. not that I have been on one before but again the ride could have been a pleasure compared with the euphoria felt 1 min and pain worse than death the next. Tomorrow would have marked my twins EDD which is also hubby's birthday. Isnt it weird how everything is timed so they can be a pain to you constantly? Is like a papercut.. with the stupid heartbeat pain that pulsate although you cant see the wound clearly.

I have been religiously visiting this Chinese physician STILL trying to prevent another miscarriage and so adamant that the next pregnancy will be a success and nothing else that I would have which I am so looking forward to try in another 3 months. Although only went for a third week to the TCM I have saw a great improvement in my bowel system that runs like clockwork now and a higher basal temp.

So the weekend that just passed I and hubby indulged ourselves with everything that I dig and love, just a little pat on my back for being so good with taking the medication etc etc. It was also a while since we have time to go out leisurely because of his travelling and my turn scheduled this coming weekend.

We took the laska for tea break with the very nice cockles which I so adore.. Went for my favourite oyster omelette which my hubby grudgingly allowed me to order for dinner. Spent time hugging the mutt and bringing him out for lunch. Bought a 2nd hand sewing machine which I always wanted and lugged it to the car. Ate sashimi, squeeze with the pax at the IT show and spent some really good time with the hubby.

I dont know if it is instinct or otherwise however on sunday night upon reaching home I decided that I want to do a pregnancy test. I have no clue why but what the heck and counted my basal temp chart 10 DPO. I thought the stick was wonky or something but I saw a line.. Not a faint line but a line you can obviously see without squinting. I freak the hubby freak.. we thought it wasnt the plan and how is that such an accident can take place. We were intimate and not on protection but surely these accidents only happens on TV? No? I was still waiting for the dowager to visit after the blighted ovum.. surely this cant be it. I felt tightening of my tummy for the last few days and had these breakouts that I cant explain. Also there were the girls being a little out of sort a little swollen. Exactly how I felt when in my first pregnancy

Unlike the blighted ovum pregnancy, I didnt see a line until 16 DPO and it was nary there and have to be taken with the first morning urine. I take heart this could be a healtier pregnancy than the previous case. However dejected I am I visited the chinese physician who assured me everything is going to be okay. We try whatever we can and if it have to go we let it go but if it can stay we do whatever we can. I felt assured somewhat.. Not so alone and a little confident. I didnt have the fretting feeling I felt during the pregnancy. I decided to stop visiting the forum and let nature take it course. I am a little at peace and a little convinced somehow the twins might have came back to mummy and daddy again. I took a pregnancy test yesterday again and the line was significantly darker again and it was only 12 DPO..

Until you hear from me again otherwise we are officically pregnant again. Some accidents are a pain but this accident we heart deeply. If only he/she will stick to us for the entirely 9 months! ;)