These past 9 months have been a roller coaster ride.. not that I have been on one before but again the ride could have been a pleasure compared with the euphoria felt 1 min and pain worse than death the next. Tomorrow would have marked my twins EDD which is also hubby's birthday. Isnt it weird how everything is timed so they can be a pain to you constantly? Is like a papercut.. with the stupid heartbeat pain that pulsate although you cant see the wound clearly.

I have been religiously visiting this Chinese physician STILL trying to prevent another miscarriage and so adamant that the next pregnancy will be a success and nothing else that I would have which I am so looking forward to try in another 3 months. Although only went for a third week to the TCM I have saw a great improvement in my bowel system that runs like clockwork now and a higher basal temp.

So the weekend that just passed I and hubby indulged ourselves with everything that I dig and love, just a little pat on my back for being so good with taking the medication etc etc. It was also a while since we have time to go out leisurely because of his travelling and my turn scheduled this coming weekend.

We took the laska for tea break with the very nice cockles which I so adore.. Went for my favourite oyster omelette which my hubby grudgingly allowed me to order for dinner. Spent time hugging the mutt and bringing him out for lunch. Bought a 2nd hand sewing machine which I always wanted and lugged it to the car. Ate sashimi, squeeze with the pax at the IT show and spent some really good time with the hubby.

I dont know if it is instinct or otherwise however on sunday night upon reaching home I decided that I want to do a pregnancy test. I have no clue why but what the heck and counted my basal temp chart 10 DPO. I thought the stick was wonky or something but I saw a line.. Not a faint line but a line you can obviously see without squinting. I freak the hubby freak.. we thought it wasnt the plan and how is that such an accident can take place. We were intimate and not on protection but surely these accidents only happens on TV? No? I was still waiting for the dowager to visit after the blighted ovum.. surely this cant be it. I felt tightening of my tummy for the last few days and had these breakouts that I cant explain. Also there were the girls being a little out of sort a little swollen. Exactly how I felt when in my first pregnancy

Unlike the blighted ovum pregnancy, I didnt see a line until 16 DPO and it was nary there and have to be taken with the first morning urine. I take heart this could be a healtier pregnancy than the previous case. However dejected I am I visited the chinese physician who assured me everything is going to be okay. We try whatever we can and if it have to go we let it go but if it can stay we do whatever we can. I felt assured somewhat.. Not so alone and a little confident. I didnt have the fretting feeling I felt during the pregnancy. I decided to stop visiting the forum and let nature take it course. I am a little at peace and a little convinced somehow the twins might have came back to mummy and daddy again. I took a pregnancy test yesterday again and the line was significantly darker again and it was only 12 DPO..

Until you hear from me again otherwise we are officically pregnant again. Some accidents are a pain but this accident we heart deeply. If only he/she will stick to us for the entirely 9 months! ;)