Been spending a lot of time with the mutt and all the shoppings and outings we used to do incessestly over the weekend is becoming a thing of a past. I just to spend some good times with mutt afterall he IS 17.. how long more can he live?

The hub barber-ed him with a puppy cut although it is nowhere like how the groomers will return him but it was decent enough. With a lousy clipper to boot because I am such a cheapie to buy a good one it was really not bad at all.

It was one of the lazy days and we laze together all 3 of us watching tv for me and snoozing for the other 2.. caught bits of the state funeral held for Dr Goh Keng Swee. I couldnt believe how daft I am about this great stateman contribution.

Oblivion to the internal Greats but held overseas Greats in highest esteemed. I am glad at least upon his passing the media waxed and literally pour lyrical about him because it let someone as bimbo(san the pretty and boobs)as me learn something about a part of Singapore history. Singapore was not all about Lee Kuan Yew whom I held and still hold the greatest admiration for. Dr Goh was part of his building team which lay the foundation for this blimp on the map also known as Singapore. I dont know what the future of Singapore will bring but with the passing of the old ministers 1 by 1 I dont know if Singapore will keep up without their wisdom and guidance.

This generation have it the easiest.. I wonder if we ever be able to cultivate anyone decent in my generation because no one stands out as prominent and really it is the maintenance rather than start up they have to do and already we grimace and fear what the future beholds. I guess we must have faith... we are just so bitch lucky that our minster mentor despite at his grand age is still working freviously as before. He cant be here forever though and I know it.. it just sucks =(

I realized I have a problem.. not death defying and thankfully the gynae office have not called me to say we have a tranlocation gene/chorosome or something.

Is a work problem and I realized I distain/dislike/abhor people who attempt to teach how to run my work when they have no clue at all in what I am doing. If you are my boss fine and I listen but than again I have never work under a boss who ever gave me the feeling as such. So we have a new member on board our product group and guess who is trying to teach us how to suck egg. You need to earn merits to get credits and from what I am seeing now he is on negative trend with me and on every topic/subjects/emails he seems to have a pretty good idea on how my work should be done in a different way. Fine but I also would appreciate if you are aware what the work is before giving any comments and most often than not I have not seen any constructive things being said that we have not consider before. Irk me so much and frankly I have no qualms at all to throw my work for him to do if he thinks he can do a better job. I am just earnestly waiting for that to happen frankly!

I was in this job for the last 2 years and all was well till a newbie comes along to come and retrain me on my roles. I really just want to say get your facts right and learn first before you attempt such antics.

On another hand I look at it as if I have an ego too big that I cannot handle. As it is right now I can tolerate any comments from him because he have reach the kingdom of no return with my patience. I tried to be cordial but after the repeat questioning or rather interogration I think I lost the plug and is now a certified grouchy bitch to him. To the extend I have started to look through papers perhaps for another jobs to get some grounding. I hate it when I am aware of the problem I have but refuse to budge.

If stuborn have a name it probably could be mine. *wink*

The mutt is slightly better and I am going around mad and buying supplement I think it can helps him. Is a little overboard at times but money can be earned back and if I lose him now I lost it forever. So I am believing any out of the mill product where a bunch of people I have no clue about commenting it is good I take their words for it. Look forward to the supplement delivery as it is... Mutt still eats like a monster and can spring a small jog here and there although the vet say it is not recommendable for a dog with a bad back. Doh!

On another hand...

The dowager visited and I was like so thrilled. 1 cycle down and 2 to go before I can give making baby a go. So looking forward to it already. I am just hoping that the chinese physian give me an earlier heads up to trying haha.. anyway it is fat hope because she not receptive having me go through another pregnancy after 3 in a span of 8 months. GAWD!

With mutt being the top of priority right now this TCC thingy have also lapse into 2nd position in my mind. Still as impt but I know mutt cannot be with me longer than 2years max so I just want to make use of whatever time I have now and not live to regret that I was not better to him in his final years.

On the next hand (if any)

Just had lunch with trace and I so missed our lunches for the last 8 years. It wasnt short by all takes but it seems so. When people says good times pass in wheeze they really do mean it because it barely seems we had lunch for 8 years before. But I guess I wouldnt trade anything to go back to the old workplace. Everything just not the same anymore so it was just as well that all of us left.

This is just a lousy week after a big nice one I had last week *bother*

Mutt's leg is at the weakest now and he can hardly stand on his own as often as he would have like. After all his running around last week that probably did him in and I am so worried he never be normal again. I know he is a senior at 17 on borrowed time ya dah ya dah but the point is I never ever want to give up until he have given up himself. As last I checked he is still downing food and eager to go downstairs for his evening stroll albeit we keep it a really short one to avoid straining him.

I am praying so earnestly and ask God for mercy to be bestow on his tiny frame and that his quality of life wouldnt be compromise because I know when he have reached the epitome of old age but I just cannot help it. He have live with us for the last 17 years and if it wasnt the aching joint I swear he easily go on to 20. I know my darling have to walk or he will just wilt like flower. I know he love life too much to spent it moping on the floor not able to navigate the house and just trying to annoy everyone as per his antics.

I am just glad tomorrow is Saturday where we will sent him for accupuncture to ease some of the pain. It have come to a point where I am always thinking of weekends so I can spend more time with him. I know it annoys the hell out of hubby but I really think is nothing because I dont want to regret in future that I have not spent the time with him when I could have. I just love the mutt so so dearly.

I am just hoping that tomorrow will be a good day for the mutt. He just needs it.

I wonder when will I have the chance to celebrate mothers day. To add salt to the wound I have my birthday today. How apt...

I want a babe of my own.. not that I choose not to have but I just dont like to go on so much about it with anyone aside from hubby, mum and dad.

I want the imps to draw me sappy cards to honour the love I shower on them.

I want to feel the love and cuddles from the tiny tots that I know I will so enjoy.

I just hope when I look back at the blog next year I have that wish come true.

4 Years ago today I and hubs held the big do. Isnt it amazing where all the time have went. It is like this big hole that sort of sucks out time without our knowledge. We going for some indonesian food just to be different. Ha! Anyway we arent ardent fans of celebrating every event big or small.

Everything not dandy as I would like but it cannot be worse I think. I just appreciate the family love that keeps all of us sane.

To hubs.. Happy anniversary! Heres to an eternity to come! =))

I feel relieved.. The clock been reset and I am awaiting for my grand dame arrival in approx 10 days. And this time it will come because we assured it ;) and my temps hit high although not too high but definetely meant that ovulation had happened.
I just need that grand dame to come to get some sanity in our life because it have been a crazy roller coaster ride the past 11 months.


Life is grand at the moment. I just feel relieve I will stay off trying to get pregnant and concentrate on getting my health back and probably start the business venture proposal I have been thinking. Not that everything is rosy right now but is that sort of peace that I hanker after. Although the dog not doing too well with his legs standing up because of his running about but I am just really thankful he can recover in a couple of days most of the time. Just need to get him in control with his running. Arrgghh.. that little darling of mine.

My birthday on another time is round the corner and the girls got me vouchers to get an iphone because they so cannot stand me whining about how everyone is using an iphone and I am so cheapo to pay for 1! LOL! I love them lah and can you believe it.. we went to a hotel lounge after dinner at Sundanese and waste till 5 freaking am! So long since I last done that and goodness gracious that we concuss when we got in the car! Ha! Thats oldness seeping us through! Arrrggh I hate it!

On a random note, tripadvisor where I am an avid reviewer of hotels that I have ever stayed in send me a note that told me my review had been read by hundreds. I was going what did I wrote in that review because it was like in Jan or Feb that I did that. I read it out for hubs to comment and he said no hotels would ever want me in theirs. Sort of right because even in the best review I found faults that I have sprinkle arsenic laced sacrasm in them. So me lah! I just need to curb that.. but cynism is inculcated. Not something that we can actually change. Oh well.. just tame it a little.