At times I feel so guilty abt not blogging... but I procrastinate way too much more often than not and frankly.. work is killing me.

On a bright note I got offer a post in our US office. Swanky huh... I thought so too.. Just nice that the exams are over I am free to embark on whatever whenever. At least I thought... Not so.. I used to kill for an opportunity like that but it was weird when Boss asked me I was going 'huh? Is that necessary?' if Boss didnt know me for so long I bet he would have let me go at the next opportunity for being so reluctant to take up responsibility. Anyhow it is tempting an offer that would just make my 'reputation' go on a bull run benefiting both my resume and money. Earning US dollars will be so glam! Ok.. maybe not too considering the tax I have to pay.. yeek!

The funny thing is I cant decide what I want base on my whimiscal whime anymore. I got to consider the newly appointed hubby feeling apparently.. DANG~ I was entertaining thoughts of him being in china and me in US for the next year or so. However the wedding is next year!! That's the major hurdle. According to blockhead he'll be back next year and he is really looking forward to building the house up and getting married. He didnt look too thrilled when I told him that so he was saying if he score this new post in singapore I didnt need to work in US for the dough.

Not that I loath any of that building home together shit stuff .. just that this couldnt come at a better time. IT always does.. I swear I can hear God grunting abt how he let me have my way and when he give me what I want I turn ard and say' no thank you' so much for being appreciative.

the new promotion is in limbo because I dont know what I want and man... I really am jaded from my routine work. I need new flux and challenges. Considering I will be in the same position in the US is stopping me but the opportunity is just so hard to come by!

Frankly before this fiasco came up a couple of weeks ago, I was preparing to collect the bonus next year and scot from here. Looking for a different job, new place, new work, new colleagues before I turned senile from being too comfort in my nest.

Everything is so different from plans now. I really wonder what is going to be up tomorrow.. sigh... Can you tell me instead?

*twindling fingers*