I just officially make a big bo bo of myself in front of everyone during lunch with clients. I didnt spill any drinks on anyone nor did I use the cutlery. I have to eat complicated stuff that left vegetables bit in my teeth! Arrgghh! Didnt realize it until I was in the company toilet rinising my mouth! ARRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I wish I could just bury my head in ground now!

I'm a little sore this morning and I am asking myself if I made the right decision. I was scheduled for a relocation to the US for another position but I couldnt take it up because the husband came back to Singapore and it doesnt make sense for me to embark to US immediately. The position was left open for almost a good year.. Now that I know that one of my colleague in US is going to take up the role. I'm a bit sore.

Somewhat something just sort of .... I dont know close up. It was an oppotunity of a lifetime but came at the wrong time of my life. Darn it.. As much as I appreciate it, I know the likelihood of that ever happening again will be as minute as an atom.

I make a few decision due to money, family and love in the last few years which I have some misgivings if I had make some of those judgement correctly.

I hate making decisions and I hate being a grown up. Why cant things be as simple like when we were young? Where the major decisions you ever have to make was to choose between chocolate and vanilla ice cream....

disillusioned me...