Being crass and un-mannered at dinning tables half my life, for the first time in my life I had really good table manners without the company of my boss, colleagues from US, the significant other's parents and some other biggies that I thought they are worthy of seeing me in a meek way.

Now that list certainly doesnt include blockhead who had seem me chewed on fish head?? Pig inards.. pried open clams with my bloody hands and eat noodles like a japanese.. Dinning at the Flutes just prompt me to keep all those unkempt manners for that few hours and just soak in the ambience and be a socialite for that few hours!

Imagine being at a slight hill top overlooking the city lightes without overwhelming effect with the trees to soften the whole site. Sigh.. san for the few mossies which was flying ard the place was a place of class and pleasure! Wine with Foi Gras was heaven although compared to the Tarven, the size is way out. I know I suppose to stop eating Foi Gras due to the inhumane way that they force feed the animal to enable the bloating liver. I am trying!! Sigh.. My bad on that one.. But I am still off shark fins and veal.. I will slowly but SURELY quit eating foi gras.. just give me a bit of time!! Anyhow I had the chicken tarminded and blockhead had cod fish.. yums! The dessert is absolutely yummlicious as well. I wouldnt say the food is VERY VERY good but it was still decent nuff.

Anyhow.. It was like being transported to old colonial time with the old parquet floor and the 'basement' just like old houses!! The huge Frangipani tree that frame the side of the stairs leading to the restaurant just give it a Wooh.. so Singaporean flavour!

Although we are 135 smackeroos poorer after the dining experience... It did buy me some self express table manners! heheh...

I just spend an amazing weekend with honey! sigh.. at the same time I cannot help but hate that the time is ticking by.. FAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We watched like SO many movies this few days it was like revenge for missing out so much.. First it was BJ diary right after darlin's 2nd exams, went to watch 'Incredible' with him on Friday.. we went piggin at old airport hawker on both thursday and friday and Sunday.. Authentic pigs!

Brought the 'wong' monster along to watch Shark Tale on Sat.. What a handful! She was literally not watching and asking way too many questions.. but that was the earliest movie I ever watch.. At 10.25am no less!

Hon and I went for a 1 day retreat on Sat.. And guess what.. he kenna mobilization! Geeze.. Anyway it was for a few hours.. didnt kill us.. But it was fun to watch TV together and talk as loudly as we like, snuggling while watchin telly is the ultimate.. love it.. we seldom have a chance to do that and with the long distance.. makes it an even precious moment. We tar bao swee rui dim sum for dinner and it was so yummy!!! Can't wait when we can finally move into our house and for starters able to live like a couple.. awwwwwwww... I am being a big sap again! hohohohoho..................

On sunday, we woke up and went for breakie at old airport road kuey chup! For those who dont have the slighest clue what that is.. is essentially a plate of pig's instestines *all sorta and I am not kiddin*, meat, egg, beancurd and preserved vegetables arranged on a dish and each of us have a bowl of rice noodle just like lasagna sheets in a bowl of soup base.. yummy! With the ever interesting town we went to watch 'Without a paddle' which is WAY better than AMERICAN PIE like 3000X times.. I mean it was SO funny!!!We didnt expect it was so good ... I read it was okay but being a flick not much publicity afterall there wasnt much big names in it.. okay but they have passe star lah.. burt reynold! Ai yah.. just watch it lah.. no regrets! promise!!

Anyway went home for dinner... mum cook some yummies.. a break from the piggin that we were having the entire time.

I hate it that the weekend is ending sigh.. ANYHOW... darlin say he be calling up the JP that I wanted once we affirm the date.. yeah! He's a sweetie after he took up the job in China.. sigh.. I guess there is a trade off somehow.

We going to Flutes at the fort for dinner today.. just to check out the place and see if we like there for the reception.. is a fairly fine dinning place.. I am so looking forward to it!

I watched BJ diary yesterday!!! AND IT IS HILARIOUS!! heh... but one thing I wont understand why did they need Renee to blow up like a puffer fish?! And colin firth is such a darling! Awwww... the kind of guys you just wish you meet but NEVER!!! I am so going to get the soundtrack because it has everything you want in a soundtrack.. music you actually like! hahaha. The movie is far out and absolutely quirky! Sigh.. I am so lucky to catch it while darling is still in sg.. =)

The week is slowly wheezing by and I can feel my stomach turn that darlin is going to be back in SZ in another few days and we havent even spend time together.. sigh...

He's mugging at home and san for the calls *which is like twice from Tuesday to now* I hardly remembered he is in Sg.. And dont get me wrong.. aside from the occasion big sap, I dont need need him to call me constantly.. but it will be nice to break the record of not calling each other and call me before bedtime or something.. aww... I am just being a whiny brat.. ignore me!

I was looking at the calendar yesterday and realized that Chinese New Year doesnt come till the 9th and 10th of Feb. Meaning once he is back this trip... I wont see him for the next 2 months, that kinda sucks.. considering his almost non existance calls and communication.. I cannot imagine what will happen.. sigh..

Ok nuff about him..

This week is good.. turkey day.. meaning my work lessen by half because US closes! and that will mark Christmas beckon and work will lessen even more because they go on this 2 weeks closure every year! Are they lucky or what?!?!?

I dont know what I'll do on Christmas this year.. not that I even celebrate it in the first place just that you know.. some plans to go will be fun. Anyhow... never mind I and zohter can probably figure some stuff to do... aside from knitting or playing with the cats.. HAHAHA! I am being moronic..

I am thinking whether to make christmas pressies this year.. I made some really spiffy stuff last year and have them out to my secondary school frds and those I went out with over the season fun.. Maybe I'll do them this year again.. hee... However not sure what I want to do yet.. Get nifty stuff from Ikea and personalize it.. which I done last year? Was actually thinking of baking cookies.. but nah... I think I try candle making or something in time to come.. but this year.. it'll be a simple project.

I am running out of stuff to blog... geeze.. I'll blog when I think of something.

mums cooked curry yesterday! Yummy! Darlin relish in the dish with much glee! Anyhow.. no one can resist mum curry lah! so yummlicious! Delish.. I am drooling as I talk!

My blockhead is so silly at time.. hee.. I'm a meany lah but yesterday I bluff him that the Engagement ring he gave me.. I sold it off.. He didnt say much and he keep sayin 'You really sold it?!?!' .. I can see his eyes go red in like 2 sec and he didnt say a word.. and then I told him I was just making him upset lah.. and he have these smarting eyes with what look like tears! Geeze.. I didnt know I have that much of an effect on my baby! and that sap head show me the E card which he tried to sent me but couldnt on his lappy.. golly.. it was so touching.. I teared as well.. It was a bit heartening because he say he miss me when he was in china... daily.. when he is having his dinner alone.. when he is out taking a walk ... just about anything he does beside work he thought of me... and he can't wait for me to go to China to show me the places where he think of me... AWwwwwwwwwwww....

I just melted away... geeze.. now I'm being a big sap! yucky!

Anyhow.. he told me more of a concrete plan.. that I should go over next year ... probably after we register the marriage..meaning after 9th August.. I aint sure.. still.. You know me.. I can't do without work and esp money.. I need constant spurs or I'll just die.. and I surely miss mums and dad! I know I miss him now but nothing compare to mum and dad.. and of course my don don! Geeze! Life's a complicated little biatch!

Why do people have to make decisions .. that's a riot actually... I made several big decisions this year alone.. Next year I guess there will be more to come.. sigh... why can't my life be more normalized ...

Blockhead is back but we didnt have much time to hang out.. he got to study! So fetch him from the airport.. went back to our pad in punggol to open up the windows to air the place * I left the empty house alone too much so he wanted to make sure it gets air out.. owell* . Check out Punggol Plaza to go to the toilet and that place is freakin small lah!!

After that went to Bedok to eat Katong laksa!! That's my fav stall lah... my gramps used to stay behind that area so whenever mum asked me to go to gramps house I will pack a packet.. Anyhow they shifted stall in the vincity like twice lah.. but mums always knows where *beam*..
That's how I learn to laksa!! for those who have no idea laksa is a bowl of rice noodle in a soup base of coconut juice, dried shrimp, chilli top with fresh cockles, fish cake, laksa leaves, chilli paste and if you want.. beans sprout *yucks*

Saw the charity show on TV.. and couldnt resist and donated $8 ... just to egg 'Yazid' on.. he's a brave fellow .. 'Bobby' as well.. sigh.. than after that saw the documentary on the indonesia kids who were over here to have necessary surgery on their facial features. Heart wrenching! It suddenly struck me how unfair the world is.. To make things worse.. one of the kiddo was thrown into the orphanage and the parents didnt visited her once!?! Wassup with folks like that! But then again, I dont know if I'll be strong enough if I am in the same predicament. Life's a lil'o loopsided but God probably have his reasons.

I finally did manage to wash the car... and right after a wipe the last bits... God did a lil o shower of blessing.. Owell.. at least I did wash the car.. never mind!

Is a fine and dandy *okie.. maybe not exactly fine.. but still.. GOOD* saturday and here I am moping and surfing the net and trying to feed this addiction of information hungry mind.. I had better make use of my time to get some things done.. like cleaning up the room.. by the way.. the room looks as thought it was hit by a tornado.. Then again.. That's me... You should see my office desk.. I dont know what is bigger than twister.. maybe is a hybrid of twister with earthquake and to top the icing.. a nuclear explosion had hit that table.. ha! I'm being dumb ignore me..

I dont know what hit me but I have a sudden urge to work overseas now.... is like a starving ambition that never got fulfilled.. I used to deter that notion considering the significant other will be alone in sg.. now that he takes off.. It sorta give me licence to do what I always wanted.. sigh.. so many things to WANT to do and so much PROCRASTINATION to go ahead with me plans.. sigh.. life's never fulfilling enough as I thought..

Have a want to start some business actually but what do I wanna do.. I am racking my head.. Starting a dimsum shoppe in AZ was ideal actually.. but I rather not.. too much hassle.. seeing how my counterparts from that part of the globe adores the Chinese *bits of hearts* literally translated I thought it got powerful buy factor..

Anyhow.. I should be wasting my life in front of the beam box.... after a nice bath that is.. Cool!

Today is Friday and I know I say I wash the car on Wednesday... I didnt.. heee..

Ai yah.. work late and ... by the time I reach home it was time to watch TV lah! And I have many junks to do at home... like preparing to get blind by the rays beaming from the 29"Box!

I will try to wash the car today.. I will try to... wash away the cake formation on the car!

Darlin's is coming back and I can hardly wait! But it wont be long before he have to go back and we will only see each other when Chinese New Year comes ard.. sigh...

Life's is bittersweet.. contradicting lil'o cesspool...

oh and Teng bought a BRAND NEW PEUGEOT 206 COVERTIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I mean the cost although equate a Camary and pragmatic me would probably choose the latter if I have the means that is still one hell of a looker! Sigh... 105k.. I wish I can but we can't.. Well at least I am going to be able to be ferry ard in one!! If you can't buy the cake ... you might as well enjoy a sneak bite! hohoho.. lucky biatch!

It is back to work ... and I cannot help but a tinge of regret that I am still stuck here with the same load of crap and stuff to do without ANY challenge.. The only challenge that I encountered yesterday was that someone told me a set of stuff.. and boss and another set .. and while boss tried to match what we both heard.. we realized we been left out of the loop and there is no one in to verified with because both the persons involve had a half day... duh.. let's see what both of them got to say...

That is how juvenile ppl are and that is when regrets set in and I wonder why am I still doing here....duh....

Anyhow.. got to wash the car today... procrastinate way too long! You can start vandalizing the car by writing through the dust with your finger.. that is how murky the car became.. ha! Well... blame it on the rain lah! They keep coming and I wanna wash also cannot mah!

I know it is all excuses lah... heee

As much as I had to enjoy this break... I have to admit I miss the academic 'adrenaline' rush from submitting homework on time.. Ha! After 4 days of wasting in front of the TV.. I had finally prod further than Tampines and went to Parkway to have din din for daddy's birthday.. heee... I thought I have mushrooms growing out of my ears or something from all this lazing...

Anyhow... I bought a cake for daddy and it sucks! I absolutely have to stick to buying cake from my favourite bakery and never again from any confectionary shoppe! DUH!!

Zohter is off to Nippon tomorrow and that means ours truly will just vegetate into a pool of mash from being left alone too long! oh boy... I still have 1 day of holiday left and let me guess what I'll be doing... watch TV till the sunset and go all awe from watching Qi Yuwu hot bod and so cutie face.. Oh and Julian Hee looks so neat too.. that left me wondering why the hell did TCS invite the men from Taiwan.. the whats'-his-name to play coach and Toro or Taro or whatever... for... not that they look anything cute.. I totally thought the duo actually is the pull down of the whole show.. okay for those who are clueless.. I am talking about the soap on TCS 8 abt the swimming thingie.. hee oh and why didnt they get leslie kwok to act as the coach.. I would have recorded the whole series and dub it in DVD n just spend hours being in a daze and drooling.. I'm a leslie kwok junkie lah...

Anyway talk to blockhead over the net yesterday and I can you I so uber miss him tons and load.. I cannot imagine what is going to happen during the Holidays season when he is not around.. this is just so sad.. He told me he wanted me to go over in May next year after my exam for a holiday or sorta to see if I like the place and maybe we can relocate together there for starters.. he told me he heard stuff from ppl and he is imagining that I would ... you know 'run off with other guys'.. I didnt thought he would ever think that because I feel he trust me nuff or that you know... no other guys in the right mind will want a hoyden girl like me mentality... Whatever is the reason he said he aint that comfortable with me being here alone and thinking everything will be fine. Which I thought is great as in... he know I have options and I dont eat off his palm.. whatever is the case..the deal was to see how it goes and he might have to come back or something because I aint going to china without a job in the bag and be a stay home housewife. My money spent on education aint going to be wasted and that's definite!

Whatever is the case... he got to make a choice somehow or rather in time to come.. I am just overwhelm with sadness at times when I have time on my hand and I feel so icky jealous of couples who can afford the time to be together... makes me hate to go out as a result and I been avoiding going out with anyone but zohter because the boyfrd issues comes up and there is 101 things to talk about and I get all tearful in my heart and go all upset while putting up a brave front. I hate it.. Life's never been this unhappy and I hate it... Because when he took up the job he never thought about what will become of us and for being so selfish..

Sigh... life's have it little way of playing tricks on us..

He's coming back next week and I dont know if I should be looking forward to it.. because I know after this trip he wont be back till chinese New Year and that'll be a good 2 months away.. sigh.... that make it all contradictory and weird.. Duh... I'm being a incoherent blogger.. so ignore me!

I had the most deadly holidays... I was literally bored to death at home and blinded myself watching TV although I am so glad at myself for watching 'October sky'... the story of Homer Hickman and the rocket boys.. where dreams do come true even for ulu town Virginia..Sigh.. I always love memoirs..

Anyhow.. started on Tis' by McCourt like finally after I got the book like what?? 1 year ago?!? Anyway.. it is a joy to start reading beside the academic crap I have been stuffing myself with so I can have a time of my life spilling it out durin the finals! In anycase.. I just wanna enjoy rotting the next few months and enjoy work.. *right... enjoy.. that is so not the word!!*

Between me and blockhead.. there is still unresolve issues and we had better discuss this when he is back.. geeze.. he's just making my life a bit more torment than normal and that absolutely sucks!

so what do I have in store for the next 3 days of holidays? I resolve to watch more TVs ... hahha... actually... I thinking of doing exercise for a change.. I know.. I said I start skipping rope but the TV was calling for me all the time! Anyhow.. maybe will run at EC tomorrow morning or something. When all else fails.. I still got to wash the car... duh! hahhaaa...

Let just cross the fingers so that I have something to do and so something to blog about this pathetic rotting like the vegetable life that I am currently leading... blah!

Kinda tired.. had this 'quarrel' with the biggest idiot in the whole world in the night yesterday. I hate it to be truthful.. I hate the quarrels.. they are making me emotionally unstable. Everything is not fine and nothing is good and we are simply pretending that everything is when it is obviously not!

For whatever is the case he want to live in denial that we are fine... although we are obviously not.. I hate this facade and I hate this sorta relationship. I dont want to live such a life anymore... I really feel stifled and fed up of everything! Why does everything have to be undermine because of such a relationship. I dont want to and I refuse to..

Beside sulking big time and looking like the biggest panda in the world.. life's continue....

Finally cut the hair! It was okay... nothing too fancy but I thought it made me look fat.. wait.. I am fat.. who am I trying to bluff?!?!

Anyhow I and zother cover every tiles in Orchard to shop after the haircut. She was on a spree for some wedding this coming sat because she is the bridesmaid sorta kinda.. Well I bought a necklace which go nicely with my dress which I always wore to dinners.. *I need to go buy another 2 dress because a hellava ppl are getting married!!* and the face mask from KOSE ...which I used it today and I like it tons!

Now the cake of the icing is the parking I spent in Orchard today! That obnoxious spot at Cairnhill parking costed me a whopping $16.80!!! It used to cost only $2.50 for christ sake! I swear off parking at that place ever again! They will not ever going to earn a cent from me!!!!!!!

Anyhow fast forward today...

Teng's ROM ended with a big bang literally.. anyhow.. it started with a big bang because the granny had a fall.. My heart almost fell with her.. luckily she's alright to begin with.

Me, hock and the wifey was up to start buying the flowers and misc balloons crap and stuff to decor the place.. Although it wasnt first class but I thought it looks nice enough for a wedding!? considering the budget of $100 plus the hand bouquet! I thought we did fine actually =) I attached some pictures... but I was so busy I missed taking pictures of the stairs and stuff! Because we decor there nice and dandy as well!

I thought for a first time effort.. It was rather good .. I hoep the newlyweds are happy and they leaving Singapore tomorrow for their honeymoon! Aint that nice.....

As for me.. I am still feeling outta sorta these few days.. I am having doubts of the relationship .. I know.. is my tantrum... I am being a miss prissy basically but pardon me why we talk like 2 sentence each time we are on the phone and they are nothing but 'biz' stuffs like 'HDB asking for proof of employment in china... ' Sigh... it doesnt help when he say he want to talk at night and you make plans to rush home from whatever shit/crap/stuff I was doing only to wait in vain because he 'claim' he fallen asleep but awoke at 3 plus on both night to sms me to say sorry to make me wait. As much as I give him the benefit of the doubt I just feel is an effort that he is not doing enough. Is not a good feeling for me to be truthful and at times like this I wished I took up the challenging jobs which I managed to get a coupel of months back to take my mind off all these! I feel like crap basically! Al's mum keep pestering me where is the boyfrd... I was so close to tears! I dont know if I still have one or otherwise! And when all else fails.. he will just apologize each and everytime and just buried everything that is wrong with the relationship which I think is a big boo boo in the first place! Life's suck bad nuff' but he is marking my world a bit more topsy turvy than usual and I have no idea how much more I can take it before I really want to break this thing off. I aint sure if he is the man I want to marry anymore because the future is uncertain and everything about this relationship is basically uncertain to begin with~

Life's funny when you think everything is good.... so what when you have monetary support and luxuries? you lost the precious lil o thing call 'feeling' which is priceless!

The Ribbons we don on the chairs for the ceremony

our table settings on every table!!

The bouquet I bought and assemble although the assembling part was a no brainer!!

I'm still not feeling any good.. sigh..

Whatever...

So the weekend is here and what did I do? Let me scroll them through..

Woke up late which I absolutely hate. Something in me just sorta snapped.. I like getting up early in the morning. Is there something wrong with me or what? This coming from ms sleepyhead-who-always-laze-till-the-sun-is-going-to-set. Anyhow.. something disturbing is eating me and I have not the slighest clue what's that!!!!!

Anyhow.. brought the jalopy to the garage to service today. Man.. I so love it purrrrrr now.. engine to engine my jalopy is the nicest OLD car.. despite it's old appearance she is so nifty inside that I wouldnt scrap her until she retires!

Came back laze a bit and waited to get teng's wedding decor for her thingie at altivo on Monday.. Imagine ribbons and stupid lil'o stuff adding up to $50.. Anyway... not adding the flowers needed also but all DIY.. I reckon her decor is costing like $100 max. I am so good at scrimping... we are even doing the bouquet for her...

Watched Cellular. Nice one... if you know me nuff... you couldnt make me part with my dough for any thriller cum adventure kinda film. Only comedies and no less... Something about Kim Basinger just beckon me to watch so went with al, teng, hock and wife to the movies. I kinda feel the chill... dont ask me why but I reckon I be better of going out with people who are single because the lonely feeling is so crappy! Times like this I wished I never did end it ugly with my extras. owell... too late for regrets now!

Going to cut the mane tomorrow.. wanna do something nice to the hair not sure what.. I deserve it dont you think.. I seldom spent much anyway and I decide I am going to get a haircut, a nice necklace from perlini silvers, see and look for clothes and shoes from vincci... Meeting zother tomorrow.. so hopefully we get to do some stuff together.. I been keeping my money for education way too much want to just splurge on myself! As a treat for getting that $500 raise from boss..

I kinda miss US now.. I am hoping to go for biz there come next year or something.. I miss the plant's ppl.. not sure why.. whatever is the case... I need a new job to get me all started just like my jalopy after a servicing. I regret giving up the chance to be regional sales executive and biz develop. executive.... opportunities doesnt knock twice I know.. but God~~ please *blinkblink* please please I will not be once again be hoodwinked by monetary support!I swear I take the job once anyone offer me a good opportunity!

anyhow my diet plan is on it's way.. I growing a smaller appetite by eating smaller portion. I am so going to start exercising! God... *blinkblink* bless me to have the killer bod! heeee....

Anyhow it's late and I am being all muddle and incoherent.... something in me is telling me to do my dream work of saving animals and stuff.. I had a good mind to become an overseas volunteer.. Something in me is saying.. 'Do it!'... hahha..

I think is the cough mixture.. nevermind!

Last words : Stay off shark's fins and save the world population of shark! To those who eat shark fin..*evil gleam* take care of mercury!!! heeee...

Everything sucks to the core.. It is ironic but before exams I was so looking forward to it ending... Now I am feeling superbly lonely! Add to the facts that I was watching TV till I go blind there isnt much else to do actually

Sigh...

I miss having a partner.. ask myself if I can take this for another 2 years.. what happen to our flat and what happen to being married? I have no idea.. Just a sorta strangling feeling that owell.. choking me sorta kinda.. I mean getting register and having to live apart just doesnt make sense and I feel that I am not sure anymore. GeezE!

Talk to blockhead yesterday and I ald feel the distance.. I am so jealous of some of my friends who have all the luck and we have to deal with money problem and seperation shit. Told him I aint sure if I can do this much longer.. at the same time we get monetary fulfillment but that emptiness can never be compensate in another way. I am just feeling so choked up and have no idea what I want.

Running errands for people takes up my time but I like time for myself.... geeze.. aint that obvious.. and now I have plenty of time on my hands till the next semester start I am having serious second thoughts about this relocation business.

Life's just pretty sucks at times.. is like a blackhole.. it sucks in all the negativity! Where is all my positiveness? I have this sudden wave of feeling vulnerable and fed up with the housing arrangement and I hate the selfish crap that he is coming out with!

I feel like giving up at times because I realize that I aint that strong to continue this sorta arrangement. IF I like such stuff I would have went out with Patrick when I was way younger and him telling me to wait for him while he go Australia to study. DUH!! Ironic that 7 years later I have to deal with the same situation again.

He's coming back soon but so what.. all is but temporal and nothin ever be the same. I hate the arrangement and no one knows about it but me.. Can the next big idiot please stand up!

Lest you think I evaporated from the earth... I just hibernated big time for exams and the damit icky thingie is finally out of my hair for the next few months at least! *phew* Bad news is... I aint got any confident because I was completely clueless with the paper.. geeze!! Anyway.. just prepared to fail that so I have ald braced myself for the release of result next month. Meanwhile I am so going to enjoy watching TV till I get blind! ha!

Anyway you know what's the deal with friends? They have this radar or sorta to disturb you when you are like 2 days to havin exams! This is the list of sms I received prior to exams.. and what happen after exams

Steps: Eh where are you? Wanna hang out tonight?
Serene: Wanna go kopi?
Share: Can help me look for jobs in the class ads and help me decide what to study
Zohter : I'm at CB now!
Teng: I need help with the pending decor.. how? can help? / wanna go dinner??
Jules: Oi.. wanna do something over weekend?

And as always right after exams.. everyone steer clear because everyone is pre-ocuppied with something now! HMMMM!!! Anyhow it had always been the case which dates back to my poly years... suddenly my classmates from Sec School wanna meet or something.

Anyway we decided on a date to get registered next year.. 9th August.. the date he propose.. Might as well.. since we are doing the actual thing in 2006 all because of how unreliable HDB is with their words just like Paula Abdul in her critique for the America Idol!

Something nice happen to me yesterday.. I sent out the thank Q cards for the companies that were keen to hire me for their interest.. Anyhow clever me include my business card in them *grin* and the Biz dev. Director from beewax who was the one keen to hire me in the first place wrote me an email to say he is looking forward to me finish my current stinct and to contact them for any chance of working for them! I dont know if that is the changing point in my life because I am all spurred to work HARD in my next job that is.. in my current.. there is really nothing.. if not for the dough and leaves.. I be in trouble! School is taking a lot of leave from me and 3rd year is awful difficult to begin with. Sigh... Anyway I didnt know I was so appreciated by the boss! I know I left deep impression in some of the people I worked with but those are normal from my managers or boss throughout my employment credentials! However this coming from higher up is like.. wheeeeee!! Okay.. just an inflated ego... nevermind me...

Darlin's comin back in approx 2 weeks =) for his exams =S anyhow it be for 2 weeks and he wont be back till Chinese New Year. I think season holidays is going to be spooky lonely for me..Anyhow.. nevermind.. We spoke a while using the free telephony thingie via net and we were asking how long he wanna be there.. He asked me to go over there take a look and to feel if I think I can live there if his job prospect is all good and dandy. *sigh* Cannot leave my mum and dad alone in sg leh! I dont feel right loh.. Anyway go for maybe stay 2-3 weeks after I resigned or something still okay.. but to stay there and be a stay home housewife?? I know I always ambition-ed to be one but... after that nice nice email from the Director I totally feel I wanna make myself useful. sigh... not sure how but defininitly wanna make myself something in the corporate world. Now I understand why last time when I say I wanna be a housewife everyone go .. 'Ya.. you wont last a week...' because I thought I thought I would love to laze ard and sleep late ... duh.. reality just doesnt coincide with theoritical thinking! Blah!

Teng's ROM on Monday and wasting another LEAVE!!! duh!!!! Anyhow... nvm lah... not that she doing this often.. heheheh...

Going for a haircut within these few days.. think I will start skipping rope everyday... just suddenly want to entertain myself! Also.. make me self nice nuff for clubbing! Hohoho... Have a wicked thought of joining a Triathon suddenly.. not sure why but is a sadist sport! Let me mull over it .. maybe I'll change my mind..

okie I'll blog when I think of something..