Guess what.. got an interview this Friday at this company which the agency INSISTED I went for the interview. Funny how some people think you dont know what you really want despite you live your life for the past 27 years and counting! Although the job FRANKLY isnt my cuppa I thought I go see if they like me and go gaga over the moolah they are offering.. just so to stroke that ego of mine.. Even if I dont take it up I see what they offer. Again another interview that is scheduled to my whimiscal schedule so I wont waste my vacation days. I like.... =)

Beewax hasnt call and I am convinced that my email application must have got lost! =S They will not ignore my application lah..... or so I hope... Let me just cross my fingers somemore and wish that they will call.. eventually..

My schedule is jam packed and I am sick and tired of everything. The hubby will be back on Saturday and I can forsee the mad rush to do up the house. It makes me sad at times that I got to move to this place with him..I cannot harbour thoughts what will my poor folks do without my grumbling and loud voice echoing thru the house. I swear I will make an effort to come home ... and of course when the hub take a biz trip.. I can go home and be my folks little girl.

Having said all these, everything is but temporary.. until I can afford a bigger place and I have grubby kids, I am certain I am moving my folks to bunk with us! ha! I can look after the folks and in turn they will be great with the grandkids...

Life suddenly turn rosier.. although not as bright as I would want.. but I love it anyhow..

*starring into space*

So I went and finally did what I always wanted as a kid. Remove that mole of mine... I always have this stupid inferiority complex abt that mole. Although my frds and even the guys I dated felt my frustration was pointless *awwwww*

So the injection didnt kill me and I survived the laser beam although I could smell the piece of me being burned away not unlike some charred bit at the bottom of the pan/pot when you dont turn off the fire. The procedures wasnt that painful and it was what.. over in 10 minutes!!! I dont know why I took so long to go abt it getting it done.. if anything was to go... I should have done it years ago. I guess I procrastinate a wee too much.. anyhow..

Beewax HAS yet to call yet and I am crossing my fingers they will next week! I had a call from an agency where the person is really interested in casting me in the same exact role in my present company. I told him no and he say 'try lah' I told him I wasnt hard up for something equivalent considering my pay package.. he say ' I mean no harm if I put in the application'. I told him no again and he say ' But the company is a new one and need someone with your experience'. the conclusion of the whole conversation was whether I want the job or not he was putting me in their interview list. Period! got me excited ALL for nothing but this stupid headhunter! For a minute I thought Beewax was calling.. I am just so confident in the beginning that I will get shortlisted. Now... I can only pray... hard!

*Clasping hands and kneeling down....*

You know how sometimes you wake up and you find yourself repeating your daily duties and you dont feel too jaded. Suddenly overnight there is this jaded pull which just make you dragged yourself to work and perform whatever there is to do. I am increasingly feeling so. Never mind the fact that I come to work earlier now thanks to the hub transport in the morning before he goes to work..not that I have any enthuse in me just in case you were wondering more of the case of 'bo bian'.

So Beewax havent called me up.. and I can sense my desperation ald. freaking 2 days only and their last date for submition is 18 Feb leh... so they still need time to gather lah hor... although I know I am just trying to make myself feel better.. geeze..

Life's still good albeit the despair and dreary-ness that hung ard in the air.At least we are healthy!!

So we forsee the weekend going to be a mad rush with the contractors and going to buy the essential bits for the new place. I hate this busy thing.. I just want to laze leh! So am going to get the mole remove tomorrow I think... going to the doctor tomorrow. Is like a childhood dream for so long to remove it ..so wish me luck...

drag to log out....

It have been quite a while and I thought I blog lest ppl think I got killed or something.. you know.. touch base.

So what happened the last few months? First the job offered in USA is off... they got someone else for the job and the newly appointed hubby got the job in Singapore and ald he is working in Singapore. After that long distance relationship for 18 months... I am glad the ordeal is over. I just think it is deviant to stay apart and saying you want to earn money when you are married. I mean what is the point in the whole relationship?! Okay according to my dad I am still not married... but you get my gist. So I drop him a visit in china with zother a month ago before he came back for good and man.. I sorta like it there to the extend I entertain thoughts that I could have set up base there. Anyhow that's cheap talk.. I know I wouldnt be able to and I am jestering if you havent notice. I need to work or I'll just... go awry...

So school's out for good for the moment I think... I'm back to the good old days dole out lotsa empathy time with the telly for good reasons. At times I cant even bear to sleep. TVs is good.. for the moment..Oh.. i got to say.. Jamie Oliver 'School lunches' really served up a good thought how children and all of us are eating junks.

Bonus's out and I feel the pressure to move on.. not much pressure frankly but I like to move on before I grow too old to move. I dont know if God love me a wee bit more but remember Beewax whose Boss and me seems to have an affinity when I went knocking on their door abt a year back. I saw an offer for another position and I sent in the resume like a good 1 day ago. They pride theirselves as an oppportunity employer and I like to work for such as well. Not that my present employer isnt but I sorta got offended by being promised 1 thing and nothing in reality. And the whole pep talk crap about employing a woman doing a man job with additional burden of me being preg in the future is just absolutely the peak of what I can take. Oh did I mention the dsicrimination that they would like me to not get pregnant for 2 years?! After years of hard work your company turn ard and tell you this in the face! The thoughts just throw me off a frenzy.. I am determine.. determine to get interviewed by Beewax this time round. I am hopeful they will call me.. I was this close the other time if not for the temptation of the green. I hope the GM remembers me after the sweet thank you note I drop them after I turn down the job.... on another note.. call it fate but rememeber I was spoilt for choice 1 year ago between 2 offers from A* and beewax.. I saw a recruitment drive for the same position at A*.. Anyhow I am sure something will work out.. soon enough.. I can feel the drive ald. Menawhile I am with my HP 24/7 just to make sure I dont miss any call! Call me beewax.. call me!!!!!!

So what else.. oh yeah.. the baby I had been driving in the past 18 months is going to be scrap.. Hub bought a new car.. nothing fancy pants but decent enough to not get mock. I still love baby... she was the first car we ever owned.. sigh.. kinda sad after 5 years we are getting rid of her. The world's just not too kind to old machinery I reckon.


I am thinking I am ready to get married come May.. the Gowns are almost done n the photos stuff are all coming along fine. Working out the details of the renovation by this week so we can tie up all the loose ends. Life suddenly going in to speed 5 on the gearbox. Just confirmed the emcee for the wedding yesterday as well. I am so glad my frds are such sports.. Left to gather the sisters and minute details.. which. *sigh* the list goes on with the marriage details.. but so far so good.. the actual doing isnt the killer.. is the thought process which totally kills you and you can literally see the brain cells evaporate. They dont grow back so maybe we shouldn't think so much.

I can bore you with the nitty gritty but hell.. I want you to come back.. ha!

I'll grumble more.. and hopefully with news that Beewax calls me!

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